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[11 Nov 2007|05:39pm] |
What a very long weekend. It's not even done yet either. Friday I worked until 1 and then Heather and I went out for a couple drinks but nothing was going on. It was very boring. I'm pretty sure I have adult add though. I got to sleep in until like 11:30 Saturday morning and then the kids came over. I got to take care of them through dinner because my mom had to go check on my grandma. Then she came back when Taylor was in the bath. I had grandma duty last night and grandma didn't feel well at all. They think that she's having problems with her heart pill and that it's making her sick. She sleeps all the time and she's barely eating. I was up most the night making sure she was okay. Usually she moves a lot at night and gets up a couple times but she didn't move at all so I was constantly checking to make sure she was still breathing. Deb came at noon and then I got to go home. I tried taking a nap but I couldn't sleep and I still can't. I have grandma duty again tonight and then I go back to work again tomorrow.
I suppose I'll go and watch House again tonight and be productive and then come home again tomorrow and catch up with life again.
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[24 Apr 2007|01:12am] |
I got my tattoo fixed and another one done. It hurt and tonight I can walk fairly normal. A lot better than what I was doing earlier today and yesterday.
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Hopefully it heals up quick or at least makes it easier to get around and then I will get a gym membership and work on improving the rest of me :D
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[24 Jan 2007|01:40pm] |
So I woke up at like 10am thinking that I'd be productive or something. I can't really do a lot of things because when I wake up my dad's sleeping and when I get home from work my mom's sleeping. But then I didn't know what I should be doing. It's like I have no hobbies anymore. If I had an hour to do whatever I wanted I have no idea what I would do. I would probably lay around and watch tv and waste it. I have no ambition to do much of anything and I guess that's why I watch a lot of tv and rot my brain away.
Tonight though I'm going to fix my lj layout.
So far the eats:
1 glass low acid OJ
2 light hot dogs
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[21 Jan 2007|08:51pm] |
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I always think it's kind of weird when fat people are all ugh i'm tired of being fat. I know I say it all the time though and I know that the weight didn't just pile on overnight. I know that a lot of my problem is living here with my parents. When they were gone I was so productive. Thse house was clean and I painted a ton and woke up early instead of laying around and watching dvds before and after work. When they're here though I don't have anything to do so I resort to watching dvds again. Plus I eat worse foods and it's not good altogether. I can't afford to move out right now though and when I do I want to do the buy the condo deal instead of renting an apartment and in order to do that I have to pay student loans or my car and get a 2nd job.
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[18 Jan 2007|02:30am] |
I ache so much. My parents went away for a few days to the casino and they put painting on my list of stuff to do. I painted the laundry room last night and then the hallway today. 3 hours of painting today makes my arm real sore. I put in painting in fitday.com though and it's almost 800 calories burned just from painting. I'm not sure how accurate that is but I was working hard and I'm going to indulge in a little pizza since I ate well the rest of the day. Except for the whole fruits and veggies thing. This weekend hopefully = grocery shopping for diet friendly work foods. I've been kind of living off crackers at work and I know I should actually eat something. Plus I"m on a banana kick and have no bananas in my house. Woe is me.
Today's foods =
2 grilled cheese sammiches (8 pts total)
10 saltines (no idea my calculator needs a new battery and i don't feel like turning on my laptop to figure it out)
1 can wild cherry pepsi (3 or 4 pts)
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[04 Oct 2006|12:43am] |
Last Friday, my sister had her baby. Her name is Hayleigh Rose and she was 6 lbs 1 oz. She was born at 11:59 pm after an ultra long wait for her. She's the cutest little peanut too. She's already holding onto your finger and loves being snuggled.
My job's going good so far. It's a little boring I guess but the pay is better and most of the people are better. I'm still getting used to all the stuff I'm supposed to do.
Here's some fotos for those who are interested
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[17 Sep 2006|10:07pm] |
okay so life is kind of strange. i moved back in with my parents. it's all sorts of strange. i miss my own space a whole lot and my own way of doing things. i get stuck watching my niece all day on saturdays and slave laboring all the time on my free time. or i'm expected to do all sorts of other things. and i have to do it because i'm not paying rent or anything. my sleep's all fucked up and i'm so bored at night since i don't really know anyone anymore. it's been hard adjusting moose to my parent's cat too. they fight a lot lately and he's scared of my dad and most of the people that come over.
my job's going okay. i don't really mind what i'm doing or the hours really but i come in pretty late to fit in with the day crew. they have their own stuff in the mornings. then the night crew stays later and i don't really fit in with them either. they have their own group and talk about being in this band that i'm not a part of and al this other stuff so that kind of sucks. it's getting better in some ways though.
i have money but i have to pay a whole bunch to my parents this month and pay off some credit cards and stuff. hopefully i'll get ahead and not have to stay here that long. i really miss my own stuff. i'm hoping i can move in somewhere nice too.
i guess that's all. hooray for bad grammar and no caps.
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[17 Aug 2006|09:11pm] |
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i'm so damn stressed.
see i started this new job which hooray is stress enough and now i'm trying to find a place to live as well. i need to move out by the end of the month and the cheapest so far is the apartment i used to live in with lex and dan. but i don't have the deposit money. and so my 2 choices are:
Choice #1: Put the deposit on my credit card. I'd rather not do this since that would be MORE debt i have to pay back plus it's like woo big debt when I'm trying to get myself settled again. Which would be more stress.
Choice #2: A friend mentioned to me tonight why didn't i just move back home for awhile. I might be able to beg my parents to let me do it so i can save some money/pay them back and get settled for awhile and then find a better place rather than just settling and such. I might go over there tomorrow night and see what they say. it just sucks because i've been on my own for 2 years now and they've had to help me tons i guess the past year and they have plans for all their rooms and like their alone time blahblah. i guess i'll be at work when my mom's home with my dad and i'll only be home when my mom's sleeping or my dad's sleeping. I don't know i guess i have to try #2 and then move to #1 if it doesn't work. it's rough though too because my parents have had this cat for 12 years now and she's used to being by herself and i have moose that i can't just get rid of and i don't know if they'll get along. anybody know how to merge 2 cats together so they can cohabit the same place? one's female (my parent's) and mine's male.
it's stressing me out real bad though. i barely eat and i feel sick all the time worrying about it.
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[26 Jul 2006|10:28pm] |
Crazy days.
So last friday this lady at a job i had applied for and had an interview for but was rejected called me and someone had put in their 2 weeks notice and they wanted to fill the position so she wanted to know if i could come in yesterday for another meeting. She offered me a job as data entry basically and i accepted. it's 11 bucks an hour and i have my own cubicle i think and i'll work 2nd shift. it's got benefits and i can wear jeans and a hoodie if i want. so today i put in my 2 weeks notice and everyone was like omg no you can't leave and i was like well i kind of need to. i'm not happy where i'm at and this is a lot more money (i'm making 8.10 right now) and so in the end everyone was just like we'll miss you blahblah and all that jazz. one of my boss' ignored me the whole day and my other boss was all like we'll miss you. then this afternoon they had to do my evaluation and i did really well and they were going to give me the big raise because i'm willing to do all these different things and be cross trained on everything and i'm also on the safety team but it's still better off where i'm going and i'll still be making like 2.50 more an hour at the other place which i really need right now. it's hard to support yourself on so little. so then after work i called my friend shannon from work to talk about what happened that day and i had someone beep in but i didn't answer because i didn't recognize the number and it was this other job i had had an interview for and they wanted to set up a meeting too but i'm going to stick with the data entry job. it's 2nd shift and i guess this is the time i'm going to change my life around. i'm getting a new apartment in river falls probably on main street above some business and i'm going to get a gym membership at the place that's open 24 hours a day and i'll go after work when no one will be there and work out. hopefully 5 times a week. things are starting to look up though. i'm kind of sick lately but i can't really tell anyone because my mom's all stressed out with my grandpa. they thought he had congestive heart failure again but this other doctor things it might have just been pneumonia again. he's been in and out of the hospital for the last few months with pneumonia and it's kind of stressful. she was all like well we'll go looking for an apartment blahblah and everything because she's excited that i got the new job too i guess. my head's been hurting a lot lately too and i don't know why. that's why i'm going to go to sleep in a few minutes and i have tomorrow off so i can do laundry and stuff at my grandma's maybe since that's where the party's going to be. my grandpa's supposed to get out of the hospital. i hope this all works out though and that i'm able to do this job and am good enough. i think i am because i'm good with computers and all that stuff. it's not selling either. we'll see i guess. my boss is super nice. time for sleep though.
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[20 Jul 2006|09:38pm] |
ugh stress.
So I've been looking for a new job. walmart kind of kills me inside a little bit each day and I can't really afford to go back to school right now so i'm looking for a new job. and I"ve applied for a bunch of different positions and i get interviews and then never hear back or when i do hear back then i didn't get it. after awhile it wears you down and you just want to give up and be at walmart. so anyways today my mom brings up my mail that she got at her house and it says that my student loan payment is going up. by like $60. to the average person that wouldn't be horrible but for me i can barely afford to eat as it is now. i have to give up all my vices and work out something or other or i won't be able to pay rent and student loans and eat. part of me enjoys my freedom of having my own place but part of me is ready to beg to move back into my parent's for awhile so i can save money and go back to school.
i hate being a grown up.
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[14 Jul 2006|08:55pm] |
I"m going to try to write in this thing more often. I think it will be good for me or at least I hope so.
When it comes to work it's hard to wake up everyday and go. I've applied for new jobs and had interviews but there seems to always be someone that's more qualified or whatever than I am and they get chosen. It was mentioned to me today that they're considering me for a temp accounting position at walmart to fill in while this girl is on maternity leave. There's a chance she might not come back afterwards. I hope at least. It's hard to hope for something though when i've been turned down so many times lately. My boss is awful and my job wouldn't be bad without her. Luckily she won't be there for the next 2 days.
My sister's pregnant and due in october. My sister in law is also pregnant and is due in november. I'll have 2 new babies to play with this year.
I guess it kind of seems like i'm in a rut again. I can't break away from this damn job and fin something better and I can't really afford to go back to school again right now. I wish though.
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[09 Jul 2006|10:25pm] |
i was going to update like 1/2 hour ago just real quick but now i'm tired and it will have to wait until tomorrow or something.
i didn't get the job mentioned in my previous entry. I had an interview yesterday though at a real estate place so i'm hoping they'll call me on monday and tell me that it's full time and woo money. it would be really nice right now.
as for anything else it's time for me to go to sleep.
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[20 Jun 2006|04:40pm] |
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God, please let this woman call me about the job I had an interview for yesterday. The job would be awesome right now and the pay increase from now would be really helpful. I'd rather not sit here and worry about it much longer.
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[20 May 2006|08:58pm] |
strangeee livejournal has this deal where i guess if it eats your entry you can find it again.
work kind of sucks a whole lot. my boss came up to me a couple days ago and said that i don't work well with this girl shannon that i'm friends with. she said we don't work hard and we talk too much. she also basically said i was a sheep and shannon is a leader and i need to just say no. she said that shannon gets in a negative mood and then i get in one and we tell all the new people all these negative things and get caught up in drama. we got in this big fight because i told shannon what she said and shannon tried to talk it out but got flustered and i argued with her for awhile and she wasn't really listening so i gave up. then she just decided to ignore me for awhile. she'd say hi to everyone around me and not me or ask random people around me how things are going but not me.
i'm hunting for a new job. it's not that i hate my job or what i do it just seems like i can't do anything right. people always tell on me or sally hates me or people bitch too much when they won't tell me things or something.
it's frustrating too because my printer doesn't want to work and i can't type out cover letters to apply to jobs. besides that i guess things are okay.
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Do people just wake up in high school and thing "When I grow up I want to be this.. and I want to go to this college."? I think I missed my epiphany moment. Everytime I think of something then the more I think about it the more I'm not sure and I usually con myself out of it. If I would've been smart with my life after high school, I would have enrolled in a 4 year. Somewhere away from here. I would have gone to Japan for the summer instead of 2 weeks in England. I wouldn't have gone to Brown college and racked up 30k in student loans that I'm paying back now for a degree that I can't use. I don't think I'd be stuck in a mindless job that I don't like and pondering over what the heck I'm going to do with my life. Somedays it feels like I'm trapped here. Everytime I think I'm going to move on, something comes up in my family and I stick around longer and I hate it. I hate where my life is now and where I'm stuck. The obvious answer is "well fix it. pick something to major in, enroll in a 4 year somewhere and move on" but it just doesn't seem possible right now. I have no money. I'd have to work full time just to have a place to live which means night classes somewhere which basically means a tech school. One of my plans was to get a degree in a tech school (accounting) and then get a full time job in that field and move on to a 4 year. That seems like tons more loans for me and when I'm finished my payments will be like $500 or so a month and that won't be good either. The rate I'm going though is I'll be in a mindless job the rest of my life and spending my free time taking care of people still. I get sick just thinking about it. I don't really know anyone anymore except family people that I hang out with all the time. My grandma keeps saying that soon it will be my turn but I don't think that will ever happen. Hell even my former drug addict sister has it better off than me right now. sigh.
My car got hit and ran again sometime and I didn't see it until today. Now both my fenders have large dents in them. Plus sometime this year someone decided to key my car. There's a star towards the back end then a big long line then another star towards the front. I can never have a new car because people just like to hit me.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
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[24 Apr 2006|08:51pm] |
I'm not dead yet. somedays i feel like it because i'm ultra exhausted and want to collapse when i get home. i have tomorrow and the next day off though and tomorrow i plan on spending it sleeping and cleaning up my apartment. i've been neglecting my apartment since i bought this damn simpson's puzzle. it's the family scene on the couch but it's all made up of tiny pictures and it's over 1000 pieces. it's all i've been doing with my free time when i'm at home pretty much.
today i smacked into a shelf and i have a big ugly bruise on my arm. it's real painful. i found out that a couple of my assistant managers really like me. assistant manager sarah runs the food area and she told josh who is merchant supervisor of dry grocery that she wishes i was in grocery all the time instead of carol the lady that works 1 cart in 8 hours and spends most her time on break. then assistant manager amanda runs the fresh areas and she calls me all the time when she needs help. she went and haggled sally too yesterday and switched around people so that i could come teach her how to make sandwiches. plus both of them always page me when they need help and before we had sally back as our supervisor they'd call me to find out who we had that day and who could do what. strange strange. our team's going to be split up though and we're getting another supervisor and half will be grocery and half will be gm. i told amanda yesterday when we were making sandwiches that i hoped i was on grocery because i like it better. she said there wasn't a doubt that i would be that her and sarah would fight for me to be over there. it's nice i guess.
anyways i have new photos and then i shall end this.
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[10 Apr 2006|04:22pm] |
Somedays I totally forget about this journal. Life is actually going pretty well lately. My sister moved out just randomly one day and we were all stressed worried that she wasn't going to take care of Taylor. The exact opposite is happening. She's putting Taylor first and her boyfriend 2nd. She randomly calls my mom just for no reason and actually talks to me. It's completely different from what she's been in the past year and it's awesome. A lot less stress in life makes people a lot happier. She's hanging out with taylor's old babysitter more too which is good for both of them. Amiee's a foster parent and she recently took in a 14 year old girl. The situation's real sad though. The girl hadn't had mcdonalds since she was 5. They used to beat her and smack her up the head for being add. Her brother (who's 18 now) has been raping her for who knows how long and the parents have done nothing. She's a good kid though from what I saw so it's sad. What makes it worse is I know who her mom is and she cleans the floors at my old pharmacy job at night. Her social worker i guess wants to take her out of amiee's care and stick her with the state though and she wants to stay with amiee. probably because she's part of a family in a sense.
my grandpa went into the hospital last week with pneumonia. he's out now though and doing better.
Work's still pretty lame and i think i'm going to start looking for another job. some days it's okay but some days it's not. it's more feeling underappreciated that's not so fun.
the only thing that's a little rough right now is i'm kind of lonely. i guess that's how life goes. i work 5 days a week and then 1 day i spend slave laboring at my mom's to clean up her house and then the next i clean up my house. today i put together my new grill and i'm going to attempt to make hamburgers and not blow myself up.
i guess that's all.
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[13 Mar 2006|06:18pm] |
Okay so according to the news today we got 15 inches of snow. Life wasn't so bad this morning though. I brushed off my car and putted to work very slowly. There were 4 of us and when I walked in at almost 7, 13 people had called in. I was working dairy and things were going okay. I had an ulcer ache but it went away after awhile. Big trucks were getting stuck in the lot and the plow got stuck and a cop car got stuck and a tow truck. The norm. Bill had to spend his day digging out people. People still came shopping though. By 9, 22 people had called in. There weren't going to be any css's after 4, no deli people after 5 and barely any of anyone else. At lunch I heard that at 11:30 we were up to 30 call ins. After lunch we were told that a few had called in from 2nd shift so we were to start unloading the truck. At 2 when 2nd shift came in, 1 person showed up. That was it. So I unloaded the truck and they sorted it. 1000 pieces. I ached already. Then when I get out to my car there was about a foot and a half snow drift going all around my car. Yeah I wasn't going to get out. So I went and got Bill's parking lot service and him and Ryan pushed me out. No big deal. I make it home and debated parking on the street but thought i'd take my chances with the lot even though it looked like it hadn't been plowed. I was able to get out this morning I figured I'd get in again. Well I didn't. I got stuck in the middle. I went and got a shovel and eventually there were a bunch of people trying to get me unstuck. It says a lot to me because I don't really know anyone in my building and all these people came to help me dig out my car and it was a lot of work. I was trying to get back out onto the street because I didn't want to be stuck in a parking spot unable to get back out again but we decided after awhile to just shovel out a spot and a path for my car to go into the spot and i'd be okay after they decided to plow the lot. I can agree with that because i didn't have to work. It took about an hour though trying to shovel my car out and get it unstuck and pushing it. I hurt a lot and that is my story for the day. I'm sure people with snow mobiles are loving today though. My niece went out for a little bit and tried to climb the 5 foot tall snow drift in my mom's yard. A lot more people came in to shop than I imagined.
By the way, Chocolate Lucky Charms are good. I'm always a little weary when they change up my favorite cereals but this one's good.
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